nothing

its what i am. and what you refuse to be. a worthless, lost person looking with no future ahead. i can't see you anymore. it hurts too bad to see you together. holding touching and loving, its everything i used to be with you.you can't see anymore when you're blind. by anger or rage or sadness. its horrible, you're horrible. i hate you and i hate me. its so unfortunate how i can imagine things to be so much more than perfect. but i only imagine. it won't come true. it can't come to be true. i won't let it happen. i hate you and i take it back, you are nothing. and you are everything. sometimes things shouldn't work out, and you are my prime example, you selfish, spineless, ugly person.

thanksgiving

today was beautiful.

unfortunately

i'm in love again. very very very much in love.
i think i'll wait :)

i think im kinda sad

i dunno. i haven't been sad for a while. i feel like real sadness. its an ugly feeling. it makes me sick. and i really hate the person responsible for making me sick. i'm mad because i saw them together today. its almost like i knew it, but i was hoping that it wouldn't happen. you can see the natural bond between them. the strong connection. how they cant let go of each other. its ugly. and disgusting. and i don't envy them. that's not what i want; their relationship sucks. i think i'm sad because i'm still in love. seriously, did someone put love potion in my chocolate milk at lunch like 3 years ago? im sad. very sad.a hopeless romantic, kinda, in a way. i hope to emphasize the word hopeless. its what i am. but i still love myself. everyone can suck my non-existent dick.

Love?

Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, nor is it resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others’ sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love.Corinthians 13: 4-8

my personal opinion

is that tagging is the stupidest way to get respect
what, so if i cant draw i dont get respect? but if i can draw i do get respect?
what kind retarded shit is that
what if i achieve greatly, academically? doesn't that count for anything?
sure, i can't fucking draw out someones name all pretty,
but i can tell the difference between phi and theta, can you?
stupidest shit ever
hahaha, and coheed and cambria is better than anything and everything, anyone and everyone.

:) <3333333333333

HAPPY IKSSE:3 DAY!!!! COHEED=<333333333333333333

learning how to drive?

its actually really scary, but super fun! haha.
my mom gets all excited, BECAUSE WE'RE SPENDING SO MUCH QUALITY TIME TOGETHER! HOW CUTE! hahahah
i'm really happy right now. like always :)

coheed and cambria:)))))))<3333333

:/

im in love again.

ew dude

im sick as hell ://
ill get better tho :D

i love coheed<33333

ugh

i have a huuuuge migrane headache tonight :/
alyssa just left and im super duper bored
and i have a huge headace :( damn!!!!!!!!!!!

hope you're having a good day :D!!!

how are you?

well im doing great! :D
today has been a very, very, veryyy good day for me.
nothing good has happened, but nothing bad either, so that makes it a good day :)
if you are reading this, i hope you are happy too.

just to remind you, if you dont appreciate the little things in life, you will always be miserable. and if you are stupid enough to not appreciate anything, then, im glad you're miserable hahaha.

i hate you so much

i love you. i hate writing shit like this. it always sounds the same. sometimes memories come back, they replay over and over and people tell you to shut the fuck up and get over it, but its too obvious that they dont even know what real happiness feels like, then to have it be taken away. its so funny, because i know, and everyone else knows that you aren't the most pretty thing in the world, but you are just truly delightful. i guess i have an acquired taste for you. i mean i cant understand who wouldn't want someone who is aggressive, controlling, and heartless beyond anything. i know what he is going to do to you. man just fuck everything. i miss you and love you a lot.


<333333333333333333333

danggg

i was like to the point of vomiting in 6th period. i didnt wanna ask to go to the nurses office tho, haha.

anyways, i took a nap and i feel LOADS better! i guess a black person is coming over today!!!! lets see what i do to this nigger!!!!!

what do you think?

i just finished pretty much a weeks worth of homework in one day. my teachers suck huge dick. although i know that getting a good grade will be super worth it in the long run, so my question is, why are so many kids too lazy to do any of their school work? isnt the idea of succeeding enough? sometimes my thinking is too ridiculous. i dont want to get lower than a C in any class this year. pray for me :)

debate to understand that we all have a flaw

such a pretty song lyric, isnt it? :D
coheed is better than anyone and anything
hahaha

i love my life

sometimes

i dont know what happens, but memories from years ago replay in my head
and then its just like they happened yesterday
fuckkk i was so damn happy i cant believe it.
well, right now im really happy, but wow i was happy before.
sometimes coheed cant be sufficient enough. sometimes.
but 99.9% of the time they are more than enough, if im not thinking of you.
like today, you will never notice how much i hurt to look at you
you would never know.
life sucks sometimes. but i love coheed<3

today was just pure hours of annoying homework, i enjoy school tho! :D